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Post by Alice Cullen on Aug 14, 2008 22:09:51 GMT -5
After a moment of hesitation Jasper's hand grasped hers and Alice smiled, squeezing his hand lightly and walking over with him. She let go as he sat down on the curb. His shoulders drawn up with his head lagging down into his hands.
The ambulance and police car wouldn't arrive for another five minutes so Alice moved to sit down next to her distraught lover and debated whether to bother him as he sat there. Just looking at him like that was making her feel almost like her heart was breaking. He was beating himself up so badly over this and she knew that most likely she would not be able to budge him from his current train of thought whatever it was. But when did something like that ever discourage her from trying to make him feel at least a bit better.
Alice paused another moment before moving a bit closer and wrapped one arm lightly around his back while resting her chin on his shoulder near his lowered head. "Oh Jazz," she murmured, closing her eyes and letting out a breathe. She moved her other hand to rest on that same shoulder and simply sat there.
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Post by Jasper Hale on Aug 14, 2008 22:38:42 GMT -5
Jasper allowed his eyes to shift shut as his head lay in the palm of his hands. he didn't move or flinch away as he felt Alice's touch the feel of her an extreme comfort in his current state. In the blackness of his mind he could escape the carnage which lay not so far from them. He knew he couldn't completely forget what had happened not any time soon but he knew Alice was there the little guardian angel on his shoulder and he would be lost without her.
He pulled his head from his hands and his eyes locked with hers as he heard his name leave her lips and he manage a faint smile as he brushed a strand of hair away from her face and merely looked back at her with sorrow filled eyes.
"I'm sorry," he whsipered not knowing what else to say.
"I want to do this for you...but it's hard and I'm sorry to cause you to worry about me like that I don't mean to," he whispered looking back intently at her.
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Post by Alice Cullen on Aug 14, 2008 23:05:07 GMT -5
Movement caused Alice to open her eyes and she saw Jasper smiling at her a bit before he moved some hair out of her face causing her to tilt slightly into his touch.
"I'm sorry," she heard him whisper. She took a breathe and nodded, "I know."
"I want to do this for you...but it's hard and I'm sorry to cause you to worry about me like that I don't mean to."
Alice looked at him for a moment before looking at the pavement trying to think of how to respond. "Jasper...I'm only worried about you because I don't want anything to happen to you. Especially you blaming yourself for something you I admit, almost, but didn't do.
"It's even worse than you actually doing something because you beat yourself up worse over near slip ups." Alice moved to look at him better, her hands moving to cup his face. "Do you even know how proud I am of you?"
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Post by Jasper Hale on Aug 14, 2008 23:33:38 GMT -5
Jasper watched Alice intently as she looked away from him at the moment. He cringed slighty as her eyes left his and he felt immediately empty.
He listened to the words she spoke and he knew she was correct yet he knew that she wouldn't admitt that he was less then perfect that he was flawed in a major and fatal way. Jasper's own eyes flcikered down to the pavement till he felt her warm eyes upon him once more and he stared into them once more. His eyes shut for a brief moment as he felt her hands on his face and he tried to block out all other thoughts and fears as he refocused on her.
"You shouldn't be Alice...I don't deserve it...not yet. I'm still not who you deserve I still carry pieces of who...of who Maria created," Jasper said hating the sound of the woman's name as it left his lips.
"But if you are, if you insist to be then I can only hope I don't let you down," he whispered his forhead leaning gently against hers to stare deeply into Alice's eyes.
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Post by Alice Cullen on Aug 14, 2008 23:47:23 GMT -5
Alice smiled, almost laughing at the absurdity of what they were talking about, "Jasper!" she said, voice ringing like a bell, "You've been doing this a lot shorter than any of us and you are doing so well especially since you were brought up in such a harsh environment compared to the rest of us. But you know what? That has made you more cautious. It's probably saved us many times in the past with your ways of working so hard not to have anything happen. It's still going to take some time to work up a better wall around humans but it's really shaping up."
Alice sighed a little, keeping their foreheads together. "Also...You may be carrying some of that woman's time with you but you and I both know it's only a matter of time before you completely beat everything she taught you."
She still refused to say Maria's name most times. Alice always got very angry whenever her name is mentioned, especially around Jasper knowing the pain she had and still is causing him.
"You're not going to let her win now are you?"
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Post by Jasper Hale on Aug 15, 2008 8:17:43 GMT -5
Jasper looked back intently at Alice as she spoke listening to the words she spoke to him and believing they were true at least true from Alice’s point of view and that would have to be good enough for the both of them right in that moment.
“Guess I don’t have much choice then to take your word as law,” Jasper whispered running a hand through the back of her hair for a moment. Jasper immediately felt the anger flare up in Alice as he mentioned Maria’s name and he immediately focused on sending calming vibes to her to calm her down they didn’t need them both on the edge.
Her words did echo through his mind though.
"You're not going to let her win now are you?"
It had been a good long while since he had last laid eyes on Maria, hell it had been a good long while since he had even heard about her. For all he knew she could have been ended a long while back but he still very much carried with him the years he had spent with her.
“No…” he whispered his eyes burning into hers once more. There was nothing he didn’t adore about Alice and he felt as though he could never tell her enough.
“Did I ever tell you how much I love you?” he whispered in her ear his eyes closing for a moment as the sound of a coming siren filled the empty morning sky.
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Post by Alice Cullen on Aug 15, 2008 9:55:43 GMT -5
As the calm started to wash over her Alice smiled at him. His gift always came in useful, she had to say. She allowed her temper to disappear at Jasper turned his powerful gaze back unto her.
“No…”
It was amazing how that one word caused such a huge difference. A grin spread onto her face and she ran her thumb along his jaw line. This right here was one of the reasons that she loved him so much. His determination.
A wave of guilt hit her. Was he determined for the right reasons? Was she being selfish? Alice couldn't even begin to imagine how hard it was for him to resist human blood and yet every time he almost didn't it tore him apart. In a way she felt almost as bad as Maria. She hated having him so messed up because of her want to stay with the Cullens. All this flashed through her mind in a second but she shook it off, deciding it was best to bring it up later. Now was not the time to let him hear these thoughts.
“Did I ever tell you how much I love you?” he whispered in her ear his eyes closing for a moment as the sound of a coming siren filled the empty morning sky around them.
Letting out a sigh to his familiar words as she floated to her she smiled before replying in their usual way, "never enough."
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Post by Jasper Hale on Aug 16, 2008 11:40:55 GMT -5
"Stop feeling guilty," Jasper whispered to her as he had immediately been able to pick out her guilt through the calm. He smiled lightly at her as his partners voice filtered back to him with the routine answer he would never tire of hearing. He pulled his head away from her forhead and kissed her gently knowing just the same he didn't deserve her but feeling blessed if that was possible just the same.
He pulled away slightly as the sirens neared and his eyes traveled down his blood stained clothes and he worried slightly as to what the paramedics and police would think to his blood stained appearence and he also worried about being around so many of them so soon after almost killing and the hunger still ripping through him.
"What do we tell them?" he whispered masking his worry with words.
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Post by Alice Cullen on Aug 16, 2008 12:17:57 GMT -5
Alice was about to protest as he pulled away but was silenced with a kiss. Her shoulders that had tensed up in that split second, thinking he was going to start another round of bringing himself down, relaxed. It was too short for her liking but she knew now was not the place to bring that up. Sometimes she swore she was kissing an angel with how gentle he always seemed to be with her.
Hearing the sirens she understood and followed his gaze down to his soiled shirt. "Don't worry about it," she said in a soothing tone before moving to stand up and offering him a hand.
"We were on a walk and we saw the car. You beat me too it and opened the door trying to see if she was still alive and that is how you got the blood on you."
It was a simple story and not all that false. Besides there was nothing fishy about it.
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Post by Jasper Hale on Aug 17, 2008 0:10:35 GMT -5
Jasper nodded his head slightly as Alice explained their "master plan" on what to do with the help that had to be only moments for arriving from the woman who lay dead in the car only a few paces away from them. He took her hand gently and pulled himself to his feet wrapping his arms around her and pulling her tight to him for a moment resting his chin a top her head just needing to be silent yet with her for a moment.
He inhaled the sweet smile of her hair as he shut his eyes for a single moment pushing away at the animalistic instincts that were still kicking at him. He held her liek that perfectly still just breathing in the scent of her and forgetting everything else around them. She would be his rock and she helped clear his mind.
"I adore you," he whispered kissing the top of her head.
He forced his eyes open and pulled himself away from her his hand still along her back as the medics and police pulled up on to the scene their scents immediately filling the air and Jasper dropped his hand from her back and grasped her hand tightly in his as he fought to retain focus and calm.
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Post by Alice Cullen on Aug 17, 2008 0:48:38 GMT -5
Did she ever mention how much she loved it when Jasper got so sweet and affectionate with her? Alice relaxed in his arms and smiled into his neck enjoying the short moment. She knew that everything would turn out fine, slipping into a glimpse of everyone leaving the scene in the same alive or dead status.
She let out a small laugh when she realized he was smelling her hair and was about to hug him back when he let go causing her to pout slightly. Her state quickly changed to attention however when the police car and ambulance pulled up.
She felt Jasper grip her hand tightly and she was very glad she could withstand the pressure. She gave his hand a small squeeze, gripping his hand back and turned to face the oncoming humans, taking a last breathe through her nose before switching to her mouth for safety purposes. She hoped Jasper was catching her calm vibe she was trying to project. She knew she needed to be strong and help him through this.
There would definitely be a hunt for him this evening.
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Post by Jasper Hale on Aug 17, 2008 22:48:31 GMT -5
Jasper kept a firm hold on to Alice's hand as the medics immediately made their way to the car to the woman who they would not be able to save. His eyes remained locked on teh car and the medics and the briefest sight of the woman's body and he never even noticed the police officers who had made their way to where Alice and Jasper stood.
"What happened here?" One of the officers asked.
The intrusive tone of voice immeidately brought Jasper out of his focus and into the presence with a small growl his animalistic exstince reacting to being caught off guard before he quickly pulled himself under control. His entire body tensed his hand still holding on to Alice's as his eyes locked with the officers.
"We were out for a walk and we saw her crash her car and we tried to help her," Jasper tried to explain almost having to grit out the last part of his sentence as his eyes never left the face of the officer his hand holding tightly to Alice as he kept his vocie even and emotionless the scent of all of those at scene driving him crazy but he struggeled to remain as calm as possible.
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Post by Alice Cullen on Aug 17, 2008 23:40:59 GMT -5
All was silent when the sirens suddenly cut short, officers and medics getting out of vehicles and wandering over to the scene. Alice watched on sadly as they tried to get a feel for a pulse. Tearing her attention away from them she watched as the officers shook their heads and walked over.
Her grip on Jasper tightened when she heard the smallest of growls escape his throat. Keeping her cool, she gave a sad nod of acknowledgment after Jasper spoke up with their planned story. "We felt for a pulse but she didn't have any when we got to her," she added, moving closer to Jasper and making a show of burying her head on his shoulder. "It must have been so painful. What a terrible accident...and all that blood."
Quietly she muttered to him, "Pretend blood makes me faint." Hopefully he got the message. If they played their cards right they could be out of there in a manner of a minute or so. If they played nicely and ignored the throbbing in the officers' necks it might take an hour. One thing Alice had learned from all the old movies she enjoyed was a faint hearted lady always saved the day when it came to excuses. A simple excuse like I must see to my wife always seemed to work in the black and whites, why not now?
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Post by Jasper Hale on Aug 18, 2008 10:04:34 GMT -5
The officer seemed to look at them both before glancing back at the scene and then affixing his gaze back upon Alice and Jasper. Jasper flinched slightly as Alice brought up the immense amount of blood; he surely didn’t need to be reminded of how much blood there had been and how intoxicating it had smelled.
Jasper wrapped a protective arm around Alice as she became “disturbed” from the accident. He had to hand it to her she was an excellent little actress.
“Are you ok Alice?” Jasper asked lacing his voice with worry so they could play up the trauma of witnessing such a horrid event and to help matters slightly Jasper allowed a few waves of anxiety and worry to drift from him if only to make the situation a bit more trying.
“She doesn’t do too well with blood sir,” Jasper said his eyes latching on to the officer in front of him wanting nothing more then to be away from all of them
He watched the officers eyes fixed on to the blood stains which littered the front of his shirt and dreaded the sense of worry he felt coming from the man as he took several steps towards him the officers hand latching on to Jaspers arm.
“Are you ok?”
Jasper yanked his arm from the officers grasp with more effort the necessary almost knocking the man off balance but he couldn’t handle him touching him. Not if the officer cared to leave the scene alive.
“I’m fine,” Jasper replied his voice almost a low growl as his eyes burned into the officer.
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Post by Alice Cullen on Aug 18, 2008 11:20:50 GMT -5
When Jasper's arm wrapped around her she moved to rest her head on his chest, resting a hand on his shirt and listening as he talked to the officer. It was very hard to mask the small bit of humor to what he was telling the officer. Didn't do well with blood?
Alice kept silent however and leaned into his embrace, not saying anything till she felt him tense slightly. “Are you ok?” She immediately sensed the officer coming closer and suddenly Jasper jerked slightly. She glanced up at him to see him controlling himself but just barely.
“I’m fine,” she heard him growl out. Her grip tightened on his shirt and tried to remain cool and collected, hoping he try and imitate her emotions for himself.
"Jasper I'm fine," she started, deciding to pretend to push herself off him and try and stand. "I just-," A 'wave of vertigo' started to hit however and she swayed slightly, starting to fall.
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