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Post by Bella Swan on Aug 15, 2008 13:55:52 GMT -5
Bella turned and shot a smile at Edward as he stopped her. Making a split decision in her mind and relying on her trust for Jasper and the love she had for this whole family she said, "I was just going to go to the living room and sit down."
She looked at Alice thoughtfully and said, "It's fine, Alice, I won't leave if you all don't want me to." It was the truth, she couldn't bare to hurt any one of them.
But she had missed Edward terribly and wanted to spend some time with him. "Unless, of course, you wanted to go somewhere else?" she asked.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Aug 15, 2008 14:20:08 GMT -5
Edward looked into Alice's eyes when she called him. He then started to read her thoughts, about how many times Bella visted the Cullens and never got hurt because of them. It seemed plausible enough. However, Edward was glad that he wouldn't have to convince Bella to stay, she seemed to have changed her mind. He smiled at her when she did so, "Of course we want you here", he said calmly.
Edward's expression changed slightly at Bella's last question. "What? Is there any specific place you want to go?", Edward asked back, a hint of delight on his voice.
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Post by Bella Swan on Aug 15, 2008 14:47:12 GMT -5
Bella looked down as she felt her cheeks heat up. "Well, it's just that, we haven't seen each other in a while and I thought that you would.." she shook her head, avoiding Edward's gaze, "nevermind," she laughed.
She quickly moved into the living room intent on turning on the tv and ignoring everyone. However, she didn't see her shoe sticking halfway out from under the coffee table. She landed on the couch and a soft, "Ow," came from her lips. Immediately picking up the remote, she began to flip through channels.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Aug 16, 2008 10:53:54 GMT -5
Edward regretted what he said as soon as he saw Bella's embarrassed expression. He didn't know what he was thinking when he asked her his previous question. However, before he could say anything, Bella had already walked out of the kitchen, and headed to the living room.
Edward followed her right away, and saw when she tripped and landed on the couch. He quickly sat next to her with a concerned look on his face. "You really should watch out your feet", he said, and then took her hand, "I'm sorry if I upset you, I didn't mean to", he apologized then.
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Post by Alice Cullen on Aug 16, 2008 10:57:01 GMT -5
Alice smiled as Edward and Bella wandered off into the living room. Shaking her head she turned to look at Jasper. "Have a good hunt?" she asked, moving to the sink to finish putting away the things Bella had used to eat since she'd already washed them.
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Post by Jasper Hale on Aug 16, 2008 11:16:25 GMT -5
Jasper had opted to stay rather silent after insisted that she didn't want him to feel uncomfortable but the truth of the matter was that wasn't what he was worried about. He knew he would never be able to deal with ever hurting Bella no matter the circumstances he knew it would destroy every single person he cared about and he couldn't have that. So he had to be excedingly careful to ensure it didn't happen.
He watched as Edward and Bella made there way from the kitchen and into the livingroom.
"It was fine," Jasper said simply as Alice asked about the hunt his mind still very much occupied on how exactly they could stop conversations like that from happening all together with Bella. Though he knew what he had to do his job was always very clear cut and simple. Either keep himself under control or keep himself away.
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Post by Alice Cullen on Aug 16, 2008 11:24:13 GMT -5
Closing the silverware drawer, Alice turned to look at Jasper as he stood there lost in his thoughts. There were a number of things that could be going on in that noggin but she was pretty sure she knew which ones were currently floating about. Glancing around the room, Alice walked over to him and wrapped her arms around his neck, resting her head on his chest.
There wasn't much she could do when he was in one of these moods so she'd decided that simply being around was as much as she could do unless he wanted to talk about it...which he normally didn't.
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Post by Bella Swan on Aug 16, 2008 14:28:06 GMT -5
Bella turned her hand over in Edward's, lacing her fingers through his. "Don't apologize. You didn't upset me. I was leaving the decision up to you whether you wanted to stay here or go somewhere else," she said with a shrug.
She scooted over a bit and laid her head on his shoulder, reveling for a moment in the coolness of his skin. This will never get old she thought off handedly. No matter what happened or why, she knew this is where she belonged -- where she would always belong.
Turning slightly to look at him, she whispered, "I love you."
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Post by Edward Cullen on Aug 16, 2008 16:02:26 GMT -5
"Don't apologize. You didn't upset me. I was leaving the decision up to you whether you wanted to stay here or go somewhere else"
Edward smiled at Bella. He liked that she was always so forgiving. Even though she was saying there was nothing to apologize about, he still felt a little guilty for letting her down like that. She obviously just wanted to spend sometime alone with him, and he couldn't give her what she wanted without embarrassing her first.
"I love you."
Edward's smile grew even wider. This was a sentence he always loved to hear. "Not more than I love you back", he said, a crooked smile on his face. He kissed lightly the top of Bella's head, and suddenly felt glad because Carlisle made him hunt. This way, Edward would be able to focus on other things, none of them including Bella's floral scent. Then, he patted his own legs, silently asking Bella to sit on his lap.
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Post by Jasper Hale on Aug 17, 2008 0:15:58 GMT -5
Jasper wrapped his arms gently around Alice as she pulled herself close to him. Being so near to her and being able to focus on just her was the best way to calm all of his thoughts.
"I wish I knew when exactly we could all stop walking on eggshells worried about if one day I was just going to snap...you don't happen to have long distance capacity do you love?" Jasper asked Alice only half kidding about his statement it surely would make life for them all much less complicated.
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Post by Bella Swan on Aug 17, 2008 0:48:17 GMT -5
Bella laughed and then quietly stood up and sat down on Edward's lap. "And how could you possibly know that you love me more than I love you?" she whispered with a smile. It always amazed her that even though Edward was hard as stone, he was always just so comfortable. If she wasn't careful, she could fall asleep right here -- and where would the fun be in that?
She lifted her hand slowly towards Edward's face and ran it carefully across his cheek. He was simply beautiful. There was no other way to describe it. She giggled a bit as she ran her hand through his hair. It tickled a little bit and she absolutely loved it.
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Post by Alice Cullen on Aug 17, 2008 0:53:49 GMT -5
In order to see his face Alice pulled slightly back and smiled up at her lover. "I would tell you but Edward won't stop changing his mind. For once Bella is the consistent one," she said with a chuckle. She didn't care if the comment would annoy her dear brother in the next room since he probably heard, they all know that it'll happen one day. Especially with Bella as determined as she is.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Aug 17, 2008 9:21:51 GMT -5
"And how could you possibly know that you love me more than I love you?"
Edward smiled. "I seriously hope I love you more than you love me back. Because I would die for you. And I don't want you to die for me", he said. He wrapped both his arms around Bella's waist and stood still as she ran her hand across his cheek. He was enjoying the moment, but couldn't help to listen the last part of Alice and Jasper's conversation. Edward had been trying to ignore then, but the last part made him feel a little bad.
Edward took both of Bella's hands, including the one she had running across his cheek, and looked into her eyes. "I mean it. I don't want you to die for me", he said, his voice was serious. Hopefully Bella would understand Edward's point.
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Post by Bella Swan on Aug 17, 2008 12:00:49 GMT -5
Bella sighed, "Edward, you can't make me not do this -- it's what I want," she said, turning her gaze to look out the window. She wanted to spend forever with him, just as they were now. She didn't want him to still be hanging around when she was eighty and wrinkly and watch her die. That wasn't fair to either of them.
She squeezed his hands briefly and then stood up, going to stand by the window. It was really dark outside, the moon covered with clouds, and it was eerie. Bella got the distinct feeling that something outside these walls was going down -- but she didn't have time to worry about that feeling right now. "I don't understand how you can't let me have this. It's what I want, my decision. For us to be able to spend eternity together -- I thought you wanted that too," she whispered.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Aug 17, 2008 13:17:10 GMT -5
"Edward, you can't make me not do this -- it's what I want"
Edward sighed. "How can someone want something like that?", he asked Bella. He didn't understand why someone would give up on an entire happy and normal life to become the very same creatures they feared at some point of their childhood. Bella couldn't leave all of this so they could be together. She would be loosing far too many things. Edward watched when Bella stood up. He didn't follow her at first.
"I don't understand how you can't let me have this. It's what I want, my decision. For us to be able to spend eternity together -- I thought you wanted that too"
At this point, Edward stood up and joined Bella, who was standing by the window. "Of course I want us to be together. But... You really don't know what it is like. Maybe I make it look too easy. It isn't. It isn't easy to stand near someone you love and suddenly find yourself wanting to have that person for lunch", Edward said with a sad voice. And besides, there was all the pain Bella would feel if she wanted to be turned. That was not what Edward wanted for her. "Just... Think about how Charlie would feel about all of this"
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